Wednesday, January 31, 2007
Because I am half sick of blogger, and I hate it even more for collaborating with Gmail(or whatever it's doing, I dont really know), which is restricting me from changing templates, I have decided to boycott blogger, temporarily at least.
So, visit me at http://mylildecadence.livejournal.com/.
I may just come back here if I get sick of livejournal or if I figure out how to redo the templates.
Or I may stay there for good.
I've always loved Livejournal for being able to lock certain entries.
Hence, onward to mylildecadence. *wink*
Tuesday, January 30, 2007
Not too long ago, I recall someone telling me that you can be standing in front of someone you love and miss the person at the same time.
That feeling sounded vaguely familiar.
Yet all too foreign.
Because it's been years since I last felt that way.
But I finally experienced it tonight. After so long.
Because you were right there.
And I missed you like fuck.
It hurts.
How can I stand here with you
And not be moved by you?
Saturday, January 27, 2007
So I've got a lot of work to do.
3 different assignments due on Monday, consisting of a script, a weekly journal entry and costume/make up proposals for a play production.
A lot of assignments right???
So after work(as in the part time job), because I had a lot of assignments to complete, I went for supper/drinks with Geoff instead of going home.
Don't see the logic? Yeah, me neither.
But what the heck.
The adjective he said most was "Nice", because the thought of consuming beer thrilled him and was equally just as thrilled while downing his mugs.
So I guess Haji lane can be just as inviting at night.
Geoff suddenly felt like practising some photography skills. Due to the effects of alcohol I reckon.
It's all about the angles isn't it? My legs look extra long, while my body looks extra short. kns.
He made me stand in the middle and I felt soooo stupid. I duno y I always feel weird whenever I have to take a picture alone.
He wanted a picture of himself taken too.
And since he had to pose so well, I decided to follow suit! I look so tall, I like!!!!! I'm not that short la, but you know, I'm the type that thinks the taller the better.
I think this is my favourite picture. I really love the wall.
It's wall humping time!!!
Once again, all about the angles.
I tried to take a pic of him from the same angle...almost there....almost....
It was great drinking and getting a lil high, with us getting extra chatty since I don't do that on Wednesday nights any longer. =)
As I was saying.. I got a lot of assignments to do...I'm up to my neck....
Wednesday, January 24, 2007
At this point of time, I feel like indulging in something decadent.
Anyway, only a few people know about my academic situation(I'm not failing or repeating! But I can't be bothered to disclose it in detail here), and the more I think about it, the more I just wanna quit school, which of course will disappoint everyone who loves me and which will also please those who never thought I'd make it to a junior college, let alone a uni. And of course I'd have made the past 2.5 years extremely redundant if I throw it all away just like that.
But sometimes I really can't help but feel this way.
I was never made for school. Friends who've been to school with me can attest to that.
When I was a child, my mum would say to me hopefully, "You must go to university when you grow up ok?"
Sure I replied "ok." just to please her. But do you know what I was really thinking???
'Yeah right. I'd never make it that far. And I don't even want to. Besides I'm not even smart enough.'
And look what I'm doing now.
Precisly why I don't bother planning most of the time. Most of my plans bounce off the wall anyway.
And no, I was not insinuating that I am actually smart enough and until now I have not bothered to prove to myself nor anybody that my presence in uni means that I'm on par with the other intellectual elites, because all I ever do is cruise along, get mediocre grades and I've only the aim to attain that horrible degree and fly far far away from school after that.
There has not been a single module which I've attended every week, nor has that been one which I've prepared for wholeheartedly. There have been so many lecturers emailing me to ask where the hell I've been etc.
You know what my first humongous mistake was?
Going to junior college.
Because after that, I was obviously dying to get into uni. Which was never part of the master plan.
I think I was just out to prove to people that I could actually get into one, after all the shit that I created(inclusive of the appalling grades) in secondary school.
Let me digress a little just to prove my point:
The other day at some wedding dinner, my father met this girl who was from my secondary school. And by default she has now become my very very distant relative because she's somehow related to his silly wife. And I haven't seen her in a few years.
So anyway let's just name this "distant cousin" of mine HM(her initials if I'm not wrong, truth is, I never bothered to remember her name).
HM: So how's Zen?
My dad: Oh she's ok...She's workin part time at the night safari.
*Silence*
HM:Oh....So she only works some nights? Is that all she's doing?
My dad:Oh no...cos she's completing her last year at NUS, that's why she's workin part time.
Her jaw DROPPED and just kept quiet for a long long time after that.
Technically, I shouldn't blame her, because well, I was never a promising student in secondary school.
But I did have a similar conversation with HM a few years back because of some relative's wedding dinner.
HM :So what are you doing now?
Me: Oh, I'm in CJC lor. Year 2.
HER JAW DROPPED ALSO OK.
She must have expected me to say that I was retaking my O levels privately or something.
Cos she was only in poly. And if I'm not wrong, she was supposedly "smarter" than me. The bitch.
I mean hello? From jc, you go where? Drop to poly ah????
Need she have such a big reaction about me going to uni after that, when she already knew I went to jc???
Gee.
So it must be because so many people look down on me(including myself), that's why I tolerated so much shit and landed myself in a place I never really wanted to be in initially-UNIVERSITY.
Suddenly it seems like I don't really have a mind of my own. Because if I had landed myself in poly straight after secondary school(the way I had planned to), I don't think I'd be facing the exact same woes as I am now.
But you know what??
Fuck it.
Since I've already come this far, I should just complete the cycle and undergo the next few months with pride and much tolerance(you'd have to understand my academic situation which I do not feel like explaining here). And very soon, I'll be out of that hell hole. I'm sure by then my parents would have been proud enough because their useless daughter finally did something useful in her life.
Sigh.
Ah well. Back to some readings that I'm trying to do.
Been so long since I ranted. Expect more to come in the next few months ok?
Love.
Monday, January 22, 2007
So I had my first driving lesson on Saturday and it turned out pretty well. A funny and friendly instructor for the first time always helps. I was actually expecting a really boring and moody one, because I hardly ever hear anything positive about most driving instructors. And it was pretty fun, although it got a bit too tiresome going round the circuit a gazillion times.
Anyway, I'm just glad that I've finally got the chance to learn because money isn't an issue any longer. My mum got an early retirement in December and she was given a package, so she's managed to set aside some money for my driving lessons.
*big grin*
Rich fuckers have no idea how that feels, but nevermind.
So anyway, after that I headed down to the SPCA alone to visit the doggies and to buy the mini diary as well.
As usual, it was misery looking at the abandoned dogs. I can't believe they abandon some of the best breeds.
This is Burton. Mixed breed. He was my fave.
A pair of gorgeous labradors.
Which moron would abandon a bull mastiff??????
Even rottweilers can be unwanted too. My God.
And so I finally got my mini diary. Was using the '06 one. And desperately needed '07's one. ho ho ho.
So anyway, here's presenting lala and lala.
I never knew there were such big lalas. Even bigger than oysters.
I love lala!!!!
I had tons of lala yesterday when Me, Cheeky and Jo went for steamboat at Bugis. One of the spiciest ever too. One half of the pot was filled with Tom yam, and the other was filled with all sorts of spices. So daring right? People normally have a chicken/pork flavoured soup on one side, while the other would be spicy, but nooooo, we chose to be adventurous! No regrets!
Now I feel like eating lala again. Dang.
And salmon sashimi, and chawanmushi.
Bah.
Say the song that I've put on my blog is nice!!! Hurhur.
You got me trippin, stumbling, flippin, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
You got me slippin, tumbling, sinking, fumbling
Clumsy cuz I'm fallin in love
So in love with you
Monday, January 15, 2007
We(me, cher, jo, bess) write our names down for the lucky draw at Hard Rock every bloody week, but none of us ever wins. But when Clair(the chick in the last pic at the bottom) does it, she gets her name called out! She doesn't even patronise the place like we do! She's even flyin back to San Francisco this Wednesday!She got freeeee Vodka just like that! Ummmm. *unfair*
1.I made her buy me an Eeyore balloon.
2.I love how my dog greets me whenever I return home. She's got no qualms about kissin me that's for sure!
3.I can't believe she goes to the gym. I think I rather die than exercise. Yes, I'm aware that I'm unfit.
4.The Shakespeare seminar that lasts 3 hours can be almost bearable when I have good company like Cher with me. Yes, we took this pic during class itself. Crash more classes ok babe?
I got the Monday blues. It's gona last me a lifetime. Tis sad. Very very sad.
Off to bed. (I'm usually in bed before 2 am nowadays, shock shock horror.)
Thursday, January 11, 2007
It's you and me
And all other people with nothing to do
Nothing to lose
And it's you and me
And all other people
And I don't know why
I can't keep my eyes off of you
Sunday, January 07, 2007
Me & You &
It took the coach 2 hrs before it left Singapore. *rolls eyes*
Berjaya Time Square Hotel
Cheap thrills
Are you a fan of Cao ge? He had a mini performance at Times Square. I couldn't be bothered to get a better picture of him. I like his Superwoman song though.
Verdict of Time Square:
Something cool popped up once in awhile.
Teppanyaki not so happening.
Why a monorail and not a proper train?
Aloha!
They played retro music.
Apparently, if you have not been to Beach Club, then you've not been to KL. *snigger* And yes, we went in.
Walking the streets past midnight(Her mum tol her to be back at the hotel every night by 7). So hard for her to keep a straight face.
The worst Ramen ever!!!!I swear!!!
Now watching this was coooooool beyond words. It was petrifying watching sharks in 3D though.
We watched it with the aid of these ginormous glasses of coourse!
T rex looms over her.
I hate theme parks..but she loves it.
Here's us on one of the Kiddy rides.
I puked my cotton candy after this. Serious. And felt sick for the rest of the day. *Glares at her*
This is a hedge hog.
We ate at The Ship.
Call for service, press D*srt for dessert, and press Bill for..bill.
Hmmm...height discrepancy.
One last walk
WHY such a number plate?
The largest Borders in the world.
Sitting on the floorwhile waiting for the coach drives you nuts.
The fuckers were 45 minutes late!!!! ARGH.
Cool exhibit behind me eh??
I spent very little because shopping there was pretty boring. The stuff they sold were so last season, plus their style of dressing there? Apparently one of the current trends there would be having a china doll fringe with a tiny clip clipped onto the fringe(NOT PULLED BACK), making them look like they've something perpetually stuck on there.
Everything's gona be ok...
Or so I tell myself.
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
So it's a brand new year with a brand new you(me)!!!
Right.
I'm beginning to wonder what's so great about having to celebrate NewYear and Xmas all the time. Yet if I don't, and have no plans at all, I'd automatically categorise myself as the world's biggest loser. When in the first place, both occasions were never of that much importance to me. So what's the logic man? And even worse still, many single people feel even lonelier and more forlorn than ever during these 2 periods. I should understand that feeling, I was single myself during those moments last year too.
From now on I've decided that Xmas and New year are plainly 2 reasons to party like a wild horse, and not exactly for me to be genuinely elated. And if I don't party like an animal, then oh well, there's always another year ahead, if I do make it.
Well seriously, time flies.
Gosh it does.
Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh
It's scary!!!!!
Another year of unaccomplishment. Ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh!!!!
If one were to ask me what were the few defining moments in '06, I really wouldn't know. Or if one were to ask what my happiest moment was, I'd be just as stupefied, cos there were a few happy times, and needless to say, some depressing ones as well.
I guess I'm feeling a bit too indifferent to be so emotional and excited about 1st Jan '07. I'd love to say that I want '07 to be a much better year for me and that all the unhappy moments that occured in '06 will only be part of the past, yet knowing me, I'd reminisce every so often and it's not like I'd have truly left 2006 behind. Ah well. Indifference has it's perks anyway, trust me.
Anyway, here's some pics taken before NYE...
Here's Kane playing with Micky on Xmas day. Micky is so old he can barely walk already. So sad!! And Kane just returned from being in China for a month. He went there to study Chinese at the mere age of 4 for the whole month and now whenever I ask him to speak Chinese, he loses his temper and continues with English. I wonder why.
Ain't my automobil cool??? Hurhur. Cheeky and I unleashed the inner kids in us, so we slotted a token in, and we started 'driving' the cow around around United Square. They also had the Giraffe and Elephant. It was definitely one of our more hilarious moments cos we laughed til we cried due to sheer embarrassment! Bad enough that we were seated on such a ride meant for kids, but as we manoeuvred our way around, the cow exuded the loudest carnival music which naturally attracted people's attention, including the children with their parents, and they'd tell their parents they'd wanna ride on it too.
Ah the silly things we do. =p
This Corgi sooo cute!!!!
On Friday after work, there was a New year's party being held there and to my own surprise, I actually found myself attending it and had serious fun! The restaurant was turned into a mini club and the DJ played good R & B, and the best part? No need to dress up. Like going to Hard Rock. Hur.
One thing about working there, they always give the cutest gifts! Naturally, mine's the tiger.
It was fun playing drinking games, like this..
The barrel is filled with different slots and when it's your turn you have to put in a key into any of the slots. And if the man in the barrel pops up, you have to drink.
And of course, we played 5-10. I will never understand why some people don't understand how to play the game. Really.
The best part was watching people get sloshed.
And so on New Year's Eve, I did not take any pics nor go out to celebrate. *Gasp* I'm the world's biggest loser!!! But I really wasn't feeling well anway, was having a flu and a cough and now my voice is husky.
We(me n cheeky) went to town for dinner and then headed back home, watched Ch 8 and at 12am we switched to Ch 5, and saw the mediacorp celebs dancing to Auld Lang Syne with confetti droppin endlessly onto the stage and realised we missed the countdown.
And at 1 plus, Cher and Jo came over to my place and we played Pictionary, Waterfall and Heart Attack, along with alcohol. After that, the 2 of them left my place at 5 and headed to Zouk and partied til 9 am while Cheeky and I were in slumberland. One word to describe them- CRAZY.
And so today, ALL 4 OF US HAD DIARRHOEA. Or more like alcohol poisoning, gosh!!!
So anyway, that sums up my very uninteresting life for the past few days. And I'm going to KL on the 3rd with Cheeky. Just me and her. At least I've got a little something to look forward to.
Happy New Year and stick to your resolutions!!!! May you have an orgasmic '07!!!
Monday, December 25, 2006
On Thursday,I gave myself an Xmas pressie and that was the colouring of my plain lil butterfly tattoo along with a new friend to keep it company.
I know, I should have chosen another colour for the first one.
Love the pain. I am sick.
Cher die die had to get inked and did a lil star tatoo behind the ear.
And then it was off to O bar.. it has one of the best popcorns ever! For only $3.
After O bar closed at 2.45 am, which was way too early for us, we found ourselves walking all the way to Club Momo because we were so not in the mood to cab home that early. While walking, we tried to take the short cut by walking on a huge patch of grass(something we wouldn't do if sober), and resulted in getting our very lovely shoes soggy and muddy. And so, the most unglam moments happened in the toilet as we desperately washed the mud off our shoes in the sink.
And so, as predicted, Hard Rock happened yesterday.
She wants to look like a goldfish.
I wanted to take a pic with her before her face turned red from alcohol consumption.
I swear, this is the coolest pic of Jojo and Cher, ever!!!!!!
And this is a not so cool pic.
Her face is getting redder.
And redder.
She complained that I never kiss her in pics.
Baby, why on earth are you licking Cher's shoulder???
I just realised that today, for the 2nd year in a row, I was in Far East havin lunch with my mum on Xmas eve! Oh, but this time along with my 2 darlings, Amy and Pmin.
Amy being satiated by her dessert.
Mummy and I are into hairbands now. Get over it.
After that, it was off to Cher's for an Xmas steamboat with Cheeky,Jojo,YanQing and Cher's parents.
And while preparing the food, someone kept stealing the crabsticks. Piggy.
This was way too much for 7 people!!! Unfortunately, my ginormous appetite failed me miserably today. Sigh.
So anyway, the highlight of tonight's mini gathering at Cher's place was Jojo's pup, Elie!!!!!!
Xi Bei cute la! Especially with the sad and expressive eyes.
Wassup!
She kept licking and nudging me while I lay down to watch tv! So cute! If only I brought Chi-Chi to play with her, they would have enjoyed each other's company cos they're so alike!
And she shamelessly sat on Cheeky's butt too!
Awwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwwww
You must have thought you weren't photographed at all tonight, right?
Love U darl!
Wheeee I got a dreamcatcher for the gift exchange! Thanks jo!
After dinner, we were all feeling soooo indolent that we refused to play any games nor do anything entertaining and ended up lyin on the bed and mattress, and left her place at 1 am, when the initial plan was to stay up and play fun stuff like Pictionary and go home after 6 am. Oops! I think we're just old already. Sigh.
Oh well, whatever it is, Merry Xmas y'all!! Hope your Xmas was divine. *Hugs*
I'll wait up for you dear Santa baby,
so hurry down the chimney tonight
